not guaranteed

It means no one is taking anyone for granted

When things aren't going to the way you want them to be, there's nothing much you could do but accept it and deal it with

Be courage enough to face it
Life is full challenges and opportunities one must come forward to seize it
Or else someone may take it away from you
In order to be successful, being brave is important
"Be courage" is what my mind says all the time
But sometimes i feel discouraged
What can i do life is that way
When you aren't confident enough, everything doesn't go the way you want them to be
So be confident enough and face all the challenges that comes your way
That too i always say to myself
Good luck `

likely

It is my grandmother who made me strong and who makes me stronger to keep going
I owe it to her
She brings out the best in me

I miss her so much i really hope i would see her soon

Right now my focus is school

I don't even have a social life anymore

School, hospital, and work are my life

I don't even hang out with my friends anymore

I'm busy, they're busy

So we don't find time together to spend

I wish eating out and doing food trips

It's always about food i swear 

I neither lose or gain weight what is the matter with me

Let's not talk about weight it's depressing

I hope to just pass all my course this semester

I could not wait for Christmas vacation to come 

I'm just gonna spend my vacation at home watching movies and drinking hot chocolate

That would be so awesome

It's been a long time i didn't post again

I hope my readers are doing well and good

Good luck `

the curse

It always happen to me
Why?
I never did anything wrong
I do not know if i did wrong
It is what i've been always scared of
That the same thing will happen again to me
Is it going to be like this through out
It is what i've been trying to avoid for all these years
It happened all over again
This feeling i cannot shake off
Was it my own doing
I do not know what's keeping me in trying to move forward
I keep talking in the back of my head that it will never ever happen to me again
That i would never let it happen again
But even i could not do anything about it
Just let the course of actions take it effect
If that is the way i will learn, then let it be.

OUAT

When i'm to watch Once Upon A Time, it always make me realize how a person can have so much hatred in her heart that makes her want to get revenge to those people who gave her pain and misery

It troubled me how much a person can change into a completely different person

It's true it happens in real life i just don't think i've witnessed it not as the same in tv series anyway

How hatred could stay in a person's heart clouding their thoughts and mind to think clearly pushing them to do things 

Things that are unacceptable and hurt the people they love and who loves them 

What does it mean to be evil? To be wicked?

What does it mean to purely love someone?

I've been watching too much tv series one in particular

I'm getting in too much into it that i'm getting sucked in the story

If i was in the story who would i be?

What could i have done? What would i do?

One question is ringing on the back of my head

I've seen and read in somewhere and it goes like this:

"If you are the main character in a book, would you read until the end?

I don't even know how to answer that question if it was asked to me

I'm having doubts that means i would hesitate in reading until the end

I still do not know how i would survive and how i am surviving until now

So in regards to reading my own story, i am reluctant to see if i get my happy ending

change

You
He
She
They
Everyone changed
Then why can't i changed
Don't I get at least a chance to change
Does it matter if it is for better or for worse
Changing the old ways is what i know
But isn't it going to be my call to say i changed
Maybe i didn't recognize it is as i changed for the worse because i didn't see it as it was
People see differently
But you know yourself
Sometimes all you gotta do is realize it
It is up to you to acknowledged it and actually say that maybe you've changed for the worse
It takes courage and guts to say it
But if you don't admit it does not mean you are weak and coward maybe you didn't see it that it was for worse
Maybe it was the best you could do for yourself at that one point.

mirror

I was afraid to look at mirror at some point because i was scared of what i was going to see
I was terrified of what i was becoming
I knew what i was becoming but i was in denial to admit it to myself
I was blind to see what was really going on
I had to tell myself over and over again
That it was okay that i myself would be able to accept it because i could not escape it even if i tried to
At one point i had to figure out myself
I needed to overcome the fear
Even if it will sucked the life out of me.

November

So it is November now
Time flies surely fast
I couldn't believe 2014 is ending soon
One more month but christmas celebration is to happen first
I am currently struggling to go to my classes
I don't know what is happening to me i'm feeling lazy all of a sudden
This semester is overwhelming i must say
A lot of things happened
There is so many things to do and so many homework due to finish and hand in
I don't know if i could do all those things
My work isn't that stressful at all
School is more stressful and tiring i cannot lie
Everything is just going too fast i think
So many information to process that they just go in and out
Some remain in my head i hope or else i'm doomed
Clinical is stressful too
I don't even know how i am still surviving
I still believe but i don't know what is next
I need some time to breathe and rethink everything.

having a sibling

There's no one you can really trust and no one to ask my for help when you needed it.
It's not like i am complaining or anything or maybe i am complaining i don't know
I feel alone sometimes not just because i do not have a love life
But that's one issue i should not go to bcos it is complete nonsense
I don't beed a guy so i could move forward in my life
I feel lonely and neglected
Maybe it is because i do not have any siblings or cousins to talk to
I used to talk to my cousins but not so much anymore that i missed having late night talks just about everything
I used to share a room with my cousin that i missed
It is so quiet in my room the only sound playing is my laptop
I wish i have a sibling
What does it really feel like to have one
At least i can say he or she is still my brother or sister after all of what happened whatever they are
At least you can run to them if something comes up bcos he or she is your sibling no matter what
No matter what fights you had, arguments, etc
You can joke around with each other and make him or her do chores for you if you're the oldest
Jealousy with each other would be inevitable but that can be resolved
But then again i would like to hear him or her calling you and older sister/brother and the respect they have for you
Such moments are irreplaceable
Unless you don't get along
That time will solved i believe
I care
Those were my feelings.

first paycheque

So i got my first paycheque
Of course i was excited who wouldn't be
I was happy
Satisfied that finally all that hardwork has paid off
It wasn't big money or anything but it was still money y'know
I'm just thankful that i have a part time job
I can finally say i am working and i am getting paid for what i am doing whatever it is
I may have selfish reasons
I got a job because i want to basically buy what my wants are
But you see once u get your paycheck, you will think twice before buying anything and asking yourself would i really need it or how badly do i want it
I haven't bought anything from my want list to be honest
I don't know i have my reasons
I am planning to use it or should i say spend it to something worthwhile not just on my selfish wants
When i think about it, it is almost gone i don't know how
I didn't do yet what i was supposed to do but i will soon

neglection

I hate myself for not being able to post something in my blog
It has been so long i am really neglecting it
There's not much to talk about
Basically i'm either in school, work, clinical, hanging out with friends, or staying home
I like staying at home
I want my alone time sometimes
I don't know what to do with myself
I feel like time is running fast that i couldn't catch a glimpse of what is important
That feeling when you feel like you are missing a huge part of what is really important
What is it? I do not know
I've been asking myself a million times but answers don't pop out of your head just like when you snap your fingers
Answers don't come to you like you want them to
You don't get the real answers from your friends or family but they at least give you some ideas
Answers are to be thought deeply
In a blink of an eye i feel like i'm going to lose something important
What to do? Weigh my priorities
For now that's the only main thing right now

face mask addict

I swear i am a face mask addict 

I just love using face masks now a days from different kinds of brands

Whenever i go to pmall i always buy at least two face masks

I spend my money on face masks

At least a face mask is for the benefit of my face as Kathleen had said

As of now i think i've used four different brands as of now

The Face Shop, C&F, Innisfree, and the latest would be Tony Moly 

I think everything that i used are all Korean brand

I've used different "flavours" too such rice, green tea, vitamin E, blueberry, bamboo, and lemon

Those where the ones i remembered of

I don't know who exactly introduced me into using face masks but i'm sure it is one of my friends

Now using a face mask at least twice a week or more depending on my mood (Yes my mood) and it has become my night face care routine

Good luck on trying a face mask that best suits you and your skin type ^^

indecisively

It is finally October i cannot believe it is almost December when you think about it
I still could not believe that i have a job now and i will be working and getting paid soon
I need that extra money for myself
Knowing that i spend a lot for buying on many things on just everything it is a good thing to have a part time job on the side
It actually fit on my schedule and there was no conflict or anything
I like that i get to be relaxed and enjoy my work bcos it is not that complicated and it doesn't stress me at all
I have all the stress i could get right now so an addition would be bad
I'm so stressed enough in school and in my clinical placement that i don't need a new stressor
I have to do well on school i hope i can do it or else i'm out
To be honest i don't know what i meant when i said i'm out
I am still thinking about it when i have time to worry those things
There is just too much in my head i think i'm going to explode soon if i don't let it out
I have to have a break from everything
Stop, think, and decide
They say you're still young but you think you're already old
I feel the other people who are in the same stage as me
The deciding time whether who we really want to be in the future
What we want to be
Like so many i'm confused at times i just don't know what to think about
I'm a go with flow person
I had the chance to choose what i want no one force me into it no one put pressure on me
I myself made that decision
That decision got me to where i am today
But that doesn't mean i cannot go back
We always have that starting point to refresh and restart everything back to the beginning
Everything's complicated right?
But when you think about it isn't that complex, it is we who makes it more complicated.

long time

So i haven't been posting on my blog
As i said i really do apologize to my loyal readers
I've been really busy in school, in my clinical placement, and in my new found part time job
I'm stressed in school and in my clinical placement
There is just too much work that needs to be done
That means i have a lot of school work
Besides i'm busy training for my new job
I just don't have the time to be posting on my blog everyday or every night
Tomorrow will be the last day and hopefully i will get a work schedule for next week
Although i'm busy i've been hanging out with my friends a lot
Like really many times
There was even a point where we see each other for like 5 consecutive days it was just crazy
I guess we missed each other that much
I would like to believe that is true ~~~
I've met new people in my work and others
I hope everything turns out well
Good luck to me

a break

Today bcos i don't have school i went to a job interview

It was the same place i had my interview last July

They called me yesterday to ask for my availability bcos they needed staff

So i went in today and it had awesome results

I have now a part time job as a cashier and i will start training next week for 3 days

Sadly it is a training without pay but that doesn't matter

As long as i will get paid in the future

I went home feeling happy and all i just hope i'll do fine and not mess up things

Then i head out bcos i will be meeting Kathleen and Jem at stc

Kathleen is going to get her eye test and so she said she needed help support ~~~

We saw Eunice and Louise what a coincidence

They were eating so we had to leave them bcos Kathleen has to go to her appointment

After her appointment we went out to eat i just couldn't say no to food

Besides i haven't been spending so i said maybe it is okay for me to buy

So i had takoyaki

It was really funny bcos when i was paying i accidentally said sex instead of six

I was so embarrassed i was like kill me now

Kathleen told me just bcos i am going to be a nurse doesn't mean i have to be bold and say stuff like that in public

It wasn't my intention to embarrass myself not everyone wants that ~~~

But the takoyaki was really good i must say

And we bought milk tea

I couldn't stop myself from buying especially that has got to do with the face

We went to face shop and i bought eyebrow gel mascara, oil blotting film, and body mist (it was 40% off so i just had to) i got a free face mask

Then we went to Yves Rocher and i bought a make up remover and moisture serum

It was the most expensive thing i've ever bought for my face i just couldn't believe i did buy it

It better be worth it 

We completely had a hard time finding a gift for Gio and we still don't have one but i guess it was okay

Today was fun i badly needed a break from school and the hospital i would go crazy if i didn't

I'm glad i went out today to relax and enjoy my day off from school

Have a goodnight 

unconditional love

Have you guys ever have that feeling when you just want to hug those people you love so dearly and say thank you to them for being a part of your life?
For supporting you and pushing you hard to be whoever you want to be
I guess everyone does
I'm telling you i'm not that kind of person
I want to be but it is hard to be one when you never had to start doing it
To me it is so awkward to do that
But i love it when others do it to me
I feel special to them
It means i'm a big part of their lives
They acknowledged me that is the great part
That's what unconditional love is right
It means you don't expect anything in return you love them and that's the point
It's what family and friends are for
In family they can send and push you away or you choose to leave but in the end they will always there for you well in some cases are
You yourself and they chose to forgive and forget and that takes courage and effort
Even if you did something wrong over again they will still accept you back unless they decided not to
that's what i like about family
In friends it's like the same kind of story but it has the privilege to chose and decide you are going to be friends with who you want to be like family
I don't know why i am saying all these i mean everyone knows these
It's something i'm writing based on what is on my mind writing helps me clear my mind
I think a lot of stuff i just don't have the courage to say it all out i don't have the right words
That is why i write it all out i'm that kind of person
Thank you for reading, more power `

apology

To all my dearest readers out there
I'm so sorry that i have been neglecting my blog and i haven't been posting everyday like the usual
I've been too busy doing stuff and of course back to school
I said before that i would try to post at least once a day
But that i failed to do so
Please bare with me
My everyday life isn't that exciting like some people do
You'll get bored if i talk about it here and i bet you won't be as interested as before
So we wait and see how things go
I'm dealing with some self issues it's not much of a problem
And also i'm focusing in school i am already at my 3rd semester i hope all things go well
If not well i will have plenty of plans to jot down
Actually i only have plan b for now but i'm going to try my best just like what everybody says when it comes to the real crisis
My apologies to my readers for not posting as i was intended to
Please be patient with me
More power and God bless ^^

no surprise

I have no surprise of element
I'm not that kind if person hence not that type of friend
To be someone who knows
Truth be told don't expect of me
You'll just be disappointed
It hurts to see someone dearly hurt
On the side note i feel guilty i'm just not
I would trade it for anything
To have something like that is a gift
A gift that comes out naturally when you really love your friend(s)
I do love my friends i treasure them
It's just that i don't possess that
So bear with me i'm nothing alike to someone else
I truly hope they would understand
It's not to be proud of but something to be addressed
Accept a person whole heartedly that's what really matters

shopping spree

Mom woke me up early Saturday morning she wanted me to go to work with her
Bcos i wasn't feeling to be a lazy bum i got up and prepped myself to go
When we were done we split the money in half
It was good thing i went with her now i have money
I wanted to go to Kennedy and Lawrence but mom took me to Marshalls
She took me shopping it was ages since we went shopping together
i could not even remember the last time
I wanted to buy a jeans or two
Bcos i knew mom was paying i picked everything i want well mostly anything i really want
I got myself a pair of jeans from Guess mom got two for herself
I got a shorts from Vero Moda even though summer is almost over
A shirt from X-S-IVE which i picked out from the men's department
well you know bcos i like loose shirts
Well it's almost as a t shirt dress on me bcos it was big and that's the way i like it
It was funny actually when i was in the men's department an old guy was looking at me
Maybe he thought i was looking for a shirt for my boyfriend or something
But i was picking for myself
It was even more funny when i put the shirt in front of me while looking at the mirror
I didn't care i like to shop at men's department
Then i got two bras one from Calvin Klein and Sophie B
Overall it was a good day
I was glad i woke up early or else i wouldn't have been able to go shopping ~~~
I was too lazy to take pictures so no pictures

back to school

Couldn't believe school started again

The truth that summer vacation was over hit me right on my face

But it wasn't that hard bcos during my summer vacation i took advance classes part time so it wasn't that bad

I woke up early but then i was late on our meeting time with Berna

We planned on going early bcos we needed to talk to someone in the financial aid office

But we weren't late for our class the first lecture was 2 hour long 

My professor let us out 10 minutes early 

so Berna and i decided to go to the area where frosh was taking place

There was loud music and live singing

Me and Berna got a free shirt and free stuff

There was even a free burger and drinks but i chose to drink water

I'm a water loving person in case you don't know

After getting a free burger we immediately went to our next class which was 3 hour long

Heck i don't know i survived i was drowsy bcos it was already past noon

I was sleepy plus the air conditioner was turned high i felt like i was feeling cold but couldn't do anything about it

Good thing my professor let us out 20 minutes early

We went to the cafeteria then i remember i had to print some powerpoints

I checked my email and said i needed to sign a confidential form something related to my clinical placement just before 4 pm striked so i ran to the coordinator's office

I was nervous but it only took less than 5 minutes it was easy peasy

I even asked Berna to log out my account for me 

bcos i really had to go to the office before it closes (thanks Berna you're awesome)

My last class was another 2 hour long

It was okay bcos my prof was cool and really nice

It was really a long and tiring day i even dozed off in the bus 

good thing i didn't miss my bus stop

It was fun i just needed time to fully adjust and adapt on my new schedule

I hope it turns out to be in my advantage ~~~

movie goer

I had to wake up early to go to my family doctor

I had to do an annually mantoux skin test as long as i'm in school which is required for me to be able to enter my clinical placement

It is used to detect if i have TB which is tuberculosis 

i have to go back after 2 days to get it checked

I realized that when i go to the doctor i am always poked with needles even the secretary/nurse noticed that

Good thing i'm not scared or anything 

Then i went to stc to meet up with Kathleen and Jem

I went to the mall first then chill while just sitting and talking to Kathleen on the phone while waiting for them

I only saw Jem for a little bit bcos she needed to go home

Kathleen and i walked around the mall and we did some window shopping

We were proud bcos we didn't spend anything at all

Gio met up with us and he treated us for lunch 

After Gio had to pay for his phone bill while i went with Kathleen to Yves Rocher to get her free self diagnostic face skin test

Then to Walmart where i bought a John Frieda nourishing oil with argan oil for my hair

It better be good i hope

I had regular poutine with extra curd and gravy Kathleen ordered for me

We decided to go watch a movie we couldn't say no to bcos it was half price every Tuesday

I wanted to watch As Above So Below which was a horror movie

But we all agreed to watch Guardians of the Galaxy instead

We watched it in ultraavx bcos they didn't have it in regular movie

It was the same price as a 3D movie

in ultraavx you get to pick where you want to be seated so even if you're late you could still have your seat bcos it is reserved especially for you

That was the good thing about it plus it  has a surround sound which was cool

The term "movie goer" was said by Kathleen bcos it was never in our plan to watch a movie

The movie was pretty funny and i enjoyed it

The funny scenes were hilarious it was a 2 hour movie

Actually Kathleen cried like 5 times during those emotional scenes (sorry Kathleen i mentioned it i just have to) whereas i myself cried only one time it was really a very touching part

I recommend watching it to others especially for kids they would love it

I'm not a kid but i liked it

In reality i'm not so hard to please most specifically in movies i just don't have to get bored 

Then time to go home i wanted to chill for a bit but Kathleen has to go home

We saw one of our highschool batchmate, Vincent

It was the earliest that i went home that i could remember it was weird but okay

I emailed the clinical coordinator of my school to ask why i don't have a place for my clinical yet

I almost had a nervous breakdown bcos clinical practice is starting next week and i don't know my clinical placement until only now
it was like a week before i start i got the info that was just nerve wracking 

Then after like an hour waiting for the reply i finally knew where my clinical was

Luckily i have it every Thursday and i will have 12 hour shift that means i would get Fridays off

I almost lost it and lose my hope luck was on my side

Tonight as i looked at my window the moon was beautiful and peaceful i wish i was the same beaut 

Goodnight zZzz

safari adventure

My family and i went to the African Lion Safari

It was like an hour away from our place

We got there almost lunch time and we had a little picnic time in the shed area

They had a lot of tables so that was good

Then we watched mother and baby elephants swim and play together in the water

While inside the car we went to Nairobi sanctuary where animals like lions and cheetah were

It took one hour to visit every animal they had

The place was really huge bcos they need to keep spaces between each animals they wouldn't know if one could attack the other animal and maybe eat them

My favourites were the lions, the rhinoceros, the zebras, and the giraffes

Mom thought two of the giraffes were just statue bcos they were not moving at all

but in fact they were alive and kicking they were just very good in standing still

They were baboons, ostriches, kangaroos, bulls, and deers and many more that i didn't mention

Good thing we were inside the car bcos that would be too much of walking

They said some of the animals climb on top of the cars but it didn't happen today

I think the animals were tired bcos it was really hot outside

We went to ride the boat cruise it was pretty quick but nice

We also went to line up for the scenic railway ride which was a small train it wasn't bad

After that we had an ice cream break i had chocolate chip cookie dough in a waffle cone

It was delicious it was melting pretty quick bcos it was just too hot

We watched 3 shows they had

The first one was parrot paradise 

Parrots and other birds showing off their talents and such

The second one was birds of prey flying demonstration

Birds showing off their flying and hunting skills

It was really amusing how birds were trained to follow their trainers

If birds were set free, weren't they gonna go fly away and escape?

But it was just awesome to watch

The last one was elephant round up

The elephants were fun to watch doing tricks and stunts

One could paint, one even played soccer and the other shot a ball in a basket ring

I was gonna ride an elephant it was an additional $8 per person

But then there was a huge line up so i didn't go besides it was getting late already

We decided it would be next time

My uncle bought me a flipbook it was two lions playing with each other

I chose the lion flipbook bcos i'm a leo well that didn't quite answer the question why i chose it

My aunt on the other hand picked the elephant flipbook well simply bcos she's an elephant lover

She has tons of elephant statues at their house

If you don't know i love flipbooks i even asked Eunice to make me one but she didn't give it to me yet i wonder when it would be ~~~

I didn't realize but my stepdad said we were at the safari for like 7 hours 

i couldn't believe it myself

I enjoyed some quality time with my family besides i've been hanging out too much i would say with my friends this summer but all is good

At least i've spent my summer well bcos it would be fall season soon

I would be busy in school and so are my friends so we wouldn't gonna meet each other as often as this summer

I enjoyed this day 

If you want to watch my vlog here's the link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ub9c9IQi_zg&list=UUcAZdB-trbPVRf6bRuBOEHg

Enjoy ^^

fam party

I came along with my stepdad to go to his brother's house bcos he was celebrating his birthday
Mom couldn't come bcos she was working again
She even has work on Labour day
Anyway we went to pick up his sister first then his mother basically she's like my grandma now
It took an hour to get to the house
There was lots of food
We ate we hang out we talked
They even asked me if i have a boyfriend already
Of course i said no i don't really have one
We played bingo for 3 times and i won 2 times
Weren't i lucky
The prize was like $1 for the first time i won
And on my second time i won $5 bcos it was the last game already
Then we chill at their backyard
They have a huge house and a really large backyard
It was really nice out there
What i really liked about their house was their kitchen it was really spacious and they have this nice table top
I forgot to mention they have a snake as a pet
I didn't get to know its name
but i think it was a constricting snake, non poisonous boa or so my stepdad said
My step uncle well he's like my uncle now the one whose birthday it was
he gave me my own fishing rod
It wasn't my birthday but he gave me a gift
He said he'll be taking me to go fishing someday with my stepdad when they have free time
They knew i never went to go fishing and i never tried it
They also said i need to get a fishing license bcos i'm a young adult now
It's like $20 i think in Canadian Tire so that wasn't that bad at all
I would love to go and try
I like new experiences they are fun to try
I'm spontaneous that's just me
On our way home i wanted some ice cream so we had a stopover
I bought a strawberry shortcake flavoured ice cream and soft baked cookies they are just my favourites
Truth be told i can never resist them
I hope everyone had a good day bcos i did

family dinner

I was kidding when i asked my mom that she should take me and my stepdad out to treat us for dinner
She has been working too much that was why i decided to ask jokingly
I even said that she wasn't giving me money so why not just treat us out for some good dinner
I was shocked when she replied where should we go
I wanted some fish and chips but bcos it was already closed we decided we were going for some Japanese food instead
Who was i to say no to when that was free food we were talking about
It wasn't exactly free bcos mom was paying but to me that was free bcos at least i didn't get to spend any money good for me
We went to the Japanese restaurant we always go to
It has been so long since we last went there i didn't even remember when
We all ordered bento box and it included sushi
There were lots of food i couldn't finish so we had to take it home
It was fun and having some family dinner is like spending quality time and bonding with one another so it was not bad
My stepdad asked me why i didn't turn into a vampire yet
My 'rents know i sleep at like dawn already they probably hear me or something
I said no bcos i didn't grow my fangs just yet
I said before that i wasn't going to take selfies anymore
I didn't actually said not going to take anymore but maybe limit taking pictures of myself but i couldn't just help it ~~~
I borrowed money from my mom bcos i am trying not to use my credit card anymore for now
I borrowed money bcos i had to buy a monthly metropass to use this coming September
I am going to pay her anyway when my student loan arrives i hope it comes soon
Actually i woke up today feeling stressed and all about school
I am worried about where i am going to have my clinical placement
And i need to go to my family doctor but i just don't have enough time
I need to book an appointment for my cpp clearance and pay
I was frustrated when i was booking for appointment bcos it was confusing and i thought i didn't get a  time slot and then i had to pay right away
I needed to sign up for paypal in order to pay so i had no choice but to use my credit card
I did what i had to do
It was funny i just now realized i was stressing for nothing but then we always feel stressed when there's something coming up soon like school for example
I was supposed to find a good internet movie to watch with my mom and stepdad and i chose
Godzilla but then mom decided to watch Tagalog series so we had put off the movie for the next week maybe if i don't get too busy bcos school will start soon
I hope you guys have a goodnight zZzz

out & about

Yesterday i went out with Eunice, Louise, & Gracia

We decided to meet up at LCBO

Bcos i was early i have to wait for them so i sat in the front of store and oh man people were looking at me with weird faces it was really funny i found it amusing

Eunice and i could only go inside the store to buy something so Louise and Gracia had to wait for us outside

Eunice was just in good luck bcos the cashier didn't ask for her ID

I got a gift from Gio through Louise

He got me a lip gloss from Artistry 

It was 3 in 1 it was cool bcos it has a small mirror and there's like a light that turns on when i open the lip gloss

He got us all an individual gift 

and he even said there was a meaning behind those things he got for us

I am not sure what he got for the others though not yet

We were going to one of our new found friend's house and we would have barbeque and stuff

His place wasn't that far but we had to pay extra fare just bcos

Luckily Gracia has extra student tickets so we used them and at least we didn't have to pay extra $4 each person we just had to pay Gracia for $2 as payment for her student tickets

We had to buy something bcos Eunice and i were older good thing i have a license bcos it was the ID i need to show or else we couldn't buy it it was for a friend

We were hungry waiting for the food to be cooked

There were pork belly, squid, and fish all barbecued

There was lots of foods it was fun

We didn't plan on sleeping over so us girls were going home

On our way home we decided to walk to get to Steeles so we wouldn't have to pay extra fare

We had a stopover first to buy ice cream and chocolate

I had an ice cream drumstick

We ate again while walking for a night stroll

It was like 5 bus stops it was far but it was worth it

It was nice to go out for a walk knowing you're with your friends

At least it wasn't scary or something

I think everyone did enjoy ^^

cpr & sushi

Yesterday i had to renew my cpr card in order to enter my clinical placement

I met up with my co future nurses: Berna, Elfie, and Katrina

We didn't know that some of our classmates from our school took the same class and so we were together that added the fun

The class took 4 hours how did i survive

I know me too couldn't believe

I mean 3 hour class makes me feel inattentive and all

What more is a 4 hour class right

But it was fun if you have done cpr before you know the drill

They have adult and baby mannequins to practice cpr

How to help a choking person was the most fun part

You have to give back blows and give abdominal thrusts

I was sleepy and hungry i just didn't know how i survived

We finished before 2 pm

And we decided we were going to eat just downstairs of the place we had a class

We ate at Wakame Sushi and they have this eat all you can it was $13 for each person

We ordered lots of food we ate while we talk but when our mouths weren't full

A friend, an uncle more like our mentor talked about his life and love stories

Us youngsters listened while asking questions out of curiosity and got our own self life lessons

It was fun listening i actually enjoyed it 

It's different when you hang out with older people 

and you just realize about life and other important things

It was nice to have a different perspective sometimes to hang out with 

it makes you more mature and to self reflect

The love stories were the most fun part

The feels you get when you hear from older people their own love stories was just unexplainable and at the same time real based on true love stories make you swoon and dreamy about your ideal guy

It makes you believe in love but it also opens up the reality that not every relationship works out

I guess everyone knows that by now

There are some things you must do in order to be happy and contented in life

Sacrifices are often the key to a better life

I really had fun and i enjoyed that talk better than the cpr class

It was like a free class on how to live life not looking back and forgiving those who had hurt you

Bcos that's what i realized

Not forgiving and forgetting is what hinders you from going forward

Although i may be the forgiving part 

i admit myself that i have a hard time forgetting about some things

Time can solved anything

And that is all i can say

Goodnight `

The pictures were from Katrina's phone

a freelance writer

There's this story i wrote
It was nothing fancy and such it was a typical love story
It is still on the go and i haven't finished it
To put an end when i just started is a definite no no
The story runs in my mind all the time but i just have a hard time writing it or in other words expressing it in a way that people would understand what i'm getting at
and i should feel satisfied
Whenever i write it doesn't feel right
It's bcos the words i wrote do not sum up what is on my mind
That is why it's kinda frustrating for me too
I really would love to write but it is not that easy
Unlike for others it easy peasy to write and to be understood by their readers
For me i'm still in dispute with myself whether i'll continue to write stories and such
Choosing the right words is hard enough what more to get that connection with the readers
I believe every famous writers went through what i am going through right now so it is just normal
I'm not saying i'm going to be famous or something but every writer at least underwent and experienced the same dilemma or else some wouldn't have become great writers
They also have this thing called writer's block
That is just like when you are writing a test there is an essay to do you don't know how to start or you are in the middle of the paragraph and you stopped writing bcos there was nothing more to write or something along those lines
Don't get me wrong i like to blog
My blog is like my diary
I write what i did, where i went to, my thoughts etc
But writing stories is another new whole level
I guess it takes time, effort, and confidence
Right now i don't have those when it comes to writing stories
That is why the story i was writing was halted for a long time now
I feel like if i share the unfinished story i wrote
everyone can be able to read what's on my mind
I don't like to feel pressured when finishing that story
The time would come i would be able to finish writing its ending
And there will be a time i would be able to post it publicly so others will read it
Now is not the time yet ~~~
Or maybe i'm not just cut out to be a writer for love stories
Although i think i have awesome ideas on what to write about

movie night

Last Tuesday i went out with Kathleen and her sister
We decided to go watch a movie
We've been wanting to watch Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles since before we went to Windsor
me especially
I like the cartoon series bcos it was just fun to watch
We bought a large popcorn
Honestly what is a movie without popcorn
I like to munch and eat while watching a movie
Eating is never a nuisance to me whenever i watch movies
The movie was really awesome i would recommend it to anyone who wants a good laugh
a break from anything to chill and rest the mind ~~~
We watched in 3D it was worth it
There were scenes that were really funny i just have to laugh really loud
I didn't care about other people but to laugh once in a while is the best
Good thing we were in time bcos when we got there there was a long line up
We were in the middle in between so i guess our timing was great
We thought we're going to be sitting in the front row again of the theatre like last time
The theatre was huge so we ended up having a good spot
It was almost the same spot when we watched SDTG
There were no pictures of us bcos we were just engrossed in the movie
Besides i'm trying to take less pictures of myself aka selfies from now on
I don't know why but i just feel like it
I feel like i just have too many pictures but that's just it
Anyway i'm still posting pictures though like foods and other stuff
I know i'm weird but where's the fun if i'm not? ~~~
Thanks for reading ^^

foodtrip

I went out yesterday with Louise and Gracia we decided we're going to ktown
We ordered dukbukki, squid bokkeum, and bibimbap
Then we went for a stroll
We went to a bookstore and i bought 3 books bcos they were only a $1 each pretty cheap right?
I bought an original milk black tea to take home
We stopover at a bakery and i bought walnut cakes and red bean korean pancake
They were so good and delicious
We also went to an artist store where they sell painting stuff and some school supplies
I saw a legit Japanese restaurant bar where customers sat on the floor while eating
I would like to go there and try
The place looks expensive but i think it would worth the money
I hope i could go there with my friends
Everyone is going to be busy soon
Anyway i had fun and it was nice to eat out
Now i am craving for dukbukki again when i just ate yesterday
If only i know how to cook a legit one
Thank you for reading `

last day in Windsor

Our last day in Windsor
We woke up late and everyone was rushing to prepare bcos we had to check out at 11 am
Good thing everyone already packed up their things the night before so we only have little things to do like washing and stuff
Because if we were still there when the room service comes in
I think Jezel or Jezel's aunt has to pay a fee
So everyone was so quick and fast and we left right away it was just before 11 am
We stayed at Jezel's house
Jezel got a cut so we had to go to the Shoppers we ended up going to Devonshire Mall
And we went to Starbucks again i had peach green tea lemonade
Eunice and i ordered the same thing in grande size but bcos they didn't have a cup for it they gave us venti instead for the price of grande weren't we lucky
Then we went to a Filipino store and bought food for lunch to take home
We ate while watching a movie
Then we watched a horror movie to scare Jezel's dad
it was really funny everyone had a good laugh
Just before we had to go we went to an indoor pool near the terminal bus station
It was like a water adventure place we didn't get a chance to go there bcos we were short in time if only everyone was available to stay for a week but everyone was busy and has things to do too
I'm surely going to miss Windsor and Jezel and her family i miss them already
I would really want to go back
Everyone wants to go back in Windsor in the next summer but we don't know yet
Everyone has their own plans too
I feel grateful to Jezel's dad, mom, her aunts, and everyone else and of course Jezel for letting us stay their and for being amazing hosts
We all had fun and enjoyed each other's company
Such moments to remember
We try to stay together until we can bcos i don't know when it's going to last everyone knows that
School will start soon so we won't be seeing each other as often as this summer
Everyone is going to be busy and focused in school
I hope we get to be together like old times
but let's face the truth that would be hard to happen again
The Windsor trip was short and sweet
And i love it just the way it was
Although we were short in time i really enjoyed the time we were together
We were living together like in a dorm
Our set up was really funny if we stayed too long together in one room and only one washroom
everyone would fight for who sleeps beside who and who goes first in the washroom
That is why if we live together we have to have our own bed
and there has to be more than one washroom
Anyways we had to face the truth that we had to go back to reality and to Toronto
It was hard to sync in that we were leaving
If only we could change the date of our last day but it was already fixed besides our bus fare was not refundable
Going back in Windsor is something to think about
Right now we live in the present
Keep making memories for something to be remembered in the future
Thank you everyone
And thank you for the people who reads my blog ^^

day 3 in Windsor

I swear day 3 in Windsor was the busiest day amongst all the days

We were able to slept in

After waking up, we decided we're going for a walk to downtown Windsor

It was like a block away from the hotel

We went to the bank first and then we decided we're gonna go eat somewhere

It was really a long walk it took us 20 minutes i'm guessing

We went to eat at a Korean restaurant called Seoul Windsor 

We ordered dukbukki, korean beef ribs, squid bokkeum, and some pork

After eating we decided we were going to Jezel's school which is University of Windsor

It was really large and huge like all other Universities

They have lots of different campus

We also went inside a huge lecture hall where she always had her class

We saw their school's mascot named Lancer
and of course we just had to take picture with him

Him i say bcos his voice was very manly 

They were filming maybe for advertising and the videographer even asked us if it was okay if we were filmed and we immediately said we didn't mind at all

Everyone could tell we were tourists bcos we have cameras with us

Jezel's dad picked us up we had a stopover at Starbucks everyone was craving and i was just craving for green tea frappuccino

We went back to the hotel to put on our bathing suits and pick our stuff

We were going to Point Pelee beach which was like almost an hour away

For Eunice and i it was again our second time to go there

But first we had a stopover at a chicken house restaurant
It was the same place we went to 2 years ago

We bought lots of fried chicken and fries and donuts

Then we went to Point Pelee beach 

All we did was swim, eat, take pictures, etc

I really did enjoy not only me but everyone did

Again the trip on the way home was awesome bcos we got to sound trip, sing and all

That night which was our last night in Windsor

We had tequila shots before going down to the casino 

We stayed on the lounge bar area and had drinks which was paid by Jezel's aunt bcos she won

Louise wasn't able to come with us so she stayed in the room

We went for a stroll and walked near the Riverfront it was really beautiful there especially at night time i would want to go back

Eunice slept on the chair while Jem and Jezel slept on one bed

Me, Kathleen, and Louise slept on the other bed

It didn't bother me at all that we kept changing places

Although i didn't for 2 nights and i slept on the same spot

I think we slept around 5 am already

We didn't get the chance to go clubbing bcos our time was tight

Besides 4 days weren't enough

Also night life in Windsor starts at Thursday night and we were to leave Thursday afternoon

Maybe next time when we could all go together so Louise could come too

We weren't able to film Teentop's Miss Right dance cover but it was okay

Everything we did was tons of fun especially that we were all together