first paycheque

So i got my first paycheque
Of course i was excited who wouldn't be
I was happy
Satisfied that finally all that hardwork has paid off
It wasn't big money or anything but it was still money y'know
I'm just thankful that i have a part time job
I can finally say i am working and i am getting paid for what i am doing whatever it is
I may have selfish reasons
I got a job because i want to basically buy what my wants are
But you see once u get your paycheck, you will think twice before buying anything and asking yourself would i really need it or how badly do i want it
I haven't bought anything from my want list to be honest
I don't know i have my reasons
I am planning to use it or should i say spend it to something worthwhile not just on my selfish wants
When i think about it, it is almost gone i don't know how
I didn't do yet what i was supposed to do but i will soon

neglection

I hate myself for not being able to post something in my blog
It has been so long i am really neglecting it
There's not much to talk about
Basically i'm either in school, work, clinical, hanging out with friends, or staying home
I like staying at home
I want my alone time sometimes
I don't know what to do with myself
I feel like time is running fast that i couldn't catch a glimpse of what is important
That feeling when you feel like you are missing a huge part of what is really important
What is it? I do not know
I've been asking myself a million times but answers don't pop out of your head just like when you snap your fingers
Answers don't come to you like you want them to
You don't get the real answers from your friends or family but they at least give you some ideas
Answers are to be thought deeply
In a blink of an eye i feel like i'm going to lose something important
What to do? Weigh my priorities
For now that's the only main thing right now

face mask addict

I swear i am a face mask addict 

I just love using face masks now a days from different kinds of brands

Whenever i go to pmall i always buy at least two face masks

I spend my money on face masks

At least a face mask is for the benefit of my face as Kathleen had said

As of now i think i've used four different brands as of now

The Face Shop, C&F, Innisfree, and the latest would be Tony Moly 

I think everything that i used are all Korean brand

I've used different "flavours" too such rice, green tea, vitamin E, blueberry, bamboo, and lemon

Those where the ones i remembered of

I don't know who exactly introduced me into using face masks but i'm sure it is one of my friends

Now using a face mask at least twice a week or more depending on my mood (Yes my mood) and it has become my night face care routine

Good luck on trying a face mask that best suits you and your skin type ^^

indecisively

It is finally October i cannot believe it is almost December when you think about it
I still could not believe that i have a job now and i will be working and getting paid soon
I need that extra money for myself
Knowing that i spend a lot for buying on many things on just everything it is a good thing to have a part time job on the side
It actually fit on my schedule and there was no conflict or anything
I like that i get to be relaxed and enjoy my work bcos it is not that complicated and it doesn't stress me at all
I have all the stress i could get right now so an addition would be bad
I'm so stressed enough in school and in my clinical placement that i don't need a new stressor
I have to do well on school i hope i can do it or else i'm out
To be honest i don't know what i meant when i said i'm out
I am still thinking about it when i have time to worry those things
There is just too much in my head i think i'm going to explode soon if i don't let it out
I have to have a break from everything
Stop, think, and decide
They say you're still young but you think you're already old
I feel the other people who are in the same stage as me
The deciding time whether who we really want to be in the future
What we want to be
Like so many i'm confused at times i just don't know what to think about
I'm a go with flow person
I had the chance to choose what i want no one force me into it no one put pressure on me
I myself made that decision
That decision got me to where i am today
But that doesn't mean i cannot go back
We always have that starting point to refresh and restart everything back to the beginning
Everything's complicated right?
But when you think about it isn't that complex, it is we who makes it more complicated.