sissy love

One time, i was so bored i went to Gracia's place. It was only a 10 minutes walk to her place. I enjoy walking now so i didn't mind at all. We ended up going to her coworker's place after i didn't remember why i decided to go with her. We went to play basketball it was fun. I guess i was too bored at home because i've been staying at home a lot and not going out besides i only work at weekends. I'm trying to save money as much as possible because there's so many things i want to buy and there's so many places i want to go especially this summer. Plus i got to start saving for our Japan trip because my friends and i are planning to go next year (i'm praying we could all go and all is possible with hard work and perseverance). The earlier the better right? Besides it's never early to save for a rainy day (that means in any case of unexpected emergency). I posted these pictures because i really liked my make up and lipstick here which i just borrowed both from Gracia. Thanks sissy xoxo 

summer '16 wishlist

It will be summer again and i am really looking forward to many great adventures and laughters with my fam and friends this summer. I can't wait so here is my summer wishlist for this summer:

I want another polaroid camera because i left mine in the Philippines went i went for vacation last January. I prefer an instax mini 70 but it is way expensive because they just came out. I really like a white one but i'll be happy and contented with a mini 8. I had a mini 7s before but i gave it away to my cousin.

this shoes

I had been wanting a pair of Adidas superstar ever since they came out. It was really hard for me to find my size because i have really tiny feet. I thought i was size 4 youth but it turns out size 2 youth fits me (that was really funny i personally still couldn't believe it). I've been dreaming of getting this pair of superstar because they are really cute and they would go in everything. They were so many other colours coming out like red, blue, and even orange but i don't like them because i only want the black. The black one is sure is classic and they would never grow out of style. I've been looking at any online shops just to find my size but sadly they don't have it because they are always sold out. I decided i would buy this pair when i go to Chicago and even if i don't go i would tell my aunt to buy it for me in my size.

highlight of my 2015

Guess what was the highlight of my 2015??? It was the BigBang concert! I had so many things going on that time that when i heard there was going to be a BigBang concert, it was like my whole world turned upside down (in a good way that is). I was like a good moment to escape from everything and at least i have that excuse to get away even for a short amount of time. I still couldn't believe we went into one. When we heard they were having their concert for the first time here in Toronto, Canada, we said we couldn't just miss it and let the opportunity go to waste. So we decided we are so going to watch even if we are far just to experience it. I mean we are talking about BigBang here and they are like the King of Kpop. They are like my ultimate biased group and Top is like my favourite ideal guy ever. I even said to myself even if i had to go watch it alone i am going. Thank God for the chance to watched it with my friends.

fave ootd

This look is my to go to outfit. Its simple and just my style. A t-shirt paired with jeans and with a pair of comfortable sneakers (trust me it is very useful when you need to walk a lot or just for strolling with friends). Throw in a bomber jacket which i really love and a baseball hat.
Cute isn't it?

online shopping

I am totally loving online shopping. I am getting addicted to it. I prefer to shop online now and just stay at home with my comfy clothes than go out, prep myself, and interact with people (now you why i don't have a boyfriend haha). Anyways i got these items in an online Asian fashion and beauty site called Yesstyle. I love this site i totally adore the clothes there but the problem is that sometimes when i like something they don't come with my size which kinda sucks. I just have to find another clothing that i like. I choose a clothing based on how it "speaks to me" if you guys know what i mean (i'm a weird person i know, my friends always say so haha).

instagram feed

You can check my instagram to get a glimpse of my simple life and what i'm interested at. Leave comments if necessary and i'll try to respond as i can. I'm proud of what my instagram feed had become and i'm trying to keep things as they are now. I'm happy and contented, there's a bit of work on how i edit my photos but it's all good. I use quite a lot of apps to edit. Maybe sometime i'll be able to write about how i edit my photos in my blog. You can see for yourself and please let me know what you think 😉 Here's the link →→→ https://www.instagram.com/teehunnah/

Windsor trip recap

My friends and i decided to go to Windsor for a 3 days trip (May 06-08, 2016). It was just out of the blue i didn't know it was serious until finally it was time to buy our tickets. We rode the bus to get to Windsor. It was 5 hours bus ride. Jezel's picked us up in the bus terminal to go to their place while we waited for Jezel to finish at work. That afternoon, we checked in at Caesar's Hotel & Casino. Then we went to Starbucks to chill then went out to walk around. We had Popeyes for dinner. The same night we went to Ariius and Level nightclub. We slept late.

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friends x sleepovers

We're half way of 2016 and i couldn't count how many sleepovers i've had with my friends. I think we might have 100's already if we count starting when we started being friends. We are always on the go and that's what i love about them. Whenever someone is sad or happy, we just talk to one another and suddenly the idea of having a sleepover comes up. It is always fun with them. I wish we had started to use our polaroid camera whenever we have sleepovers. I bet i would have tons of polaroid films already to cover the entire wall of my bedroom, i am exaggerating a little bit but i would say maybe i could cover half of my bedroom wall. It would be pretty but the upkeep is going to be hard so i will just put them in a polaroid film album for safekeeping too. But for now pictures are enough and the times we spent together are priceless. I love you guys! ^_^v

the ME now

I just cut my hair 2 weeks ago and i am loving it. My hair was long before already but i decided to cut it, for a change. 2 years have passed and this is the "ME" now, trying to be more mature and responsible in dealing the things i have to deal with. I still sometimes act as a kid but that couldn't be helped right? Everyone does it too and that is okay.

what's up

What's up?
It has been 2 years since my last post in this blog and frankly a lot of things had happened. First good news is i am finally graduation this June (congratulations to me!) After 3 years of hard work, sleepless nights, stress eating, etc i finally am graduating and i can say i totally deserve it. Second im going to get my driving license soon so i am kinda nervous but excited at the same time. I know that i can do it. I should believe in myself right? After all, hard work really pays off. I've been travelling a lot which is really nice and fun. I think 2016 is really my year and of course it is the year of travelling for me. I've been to quite a few places. I went back home to Philippines to visit my grandmother and my relatives for almost 2 months it was quite amazing but you could go from having money to completely broke after that. That is why good thing i have saved up some money for my expenses. I went to Windsor with my friends finally after 2 years. It was my third time in Windsor. It's like i go there with my friends every 2 years. It was awesome. I would leave it at that. I went to Chicago with my aunt. She said it would be my advance graduation gift from her. It was fun too. I would go there again maybe with someone in the future like my friends or maybe my special someone (if i have one already at that time). 2015 was not my year, i made a lot of mistakes, regrets, and failures that i have learned my lessons from and i never want to repeat them again. I promise i would make 2016 my year and i would like to travel with friends when i get my driving license and of course if i will have a car. That kind off sums up of what happened in my 1 and 1/2 year of not posting to this blog. I'll really try to update as much as possible whenever i won't be busy.
Goodluck to you ^.^

not guaranteed

It means no one is taking anyone for granted

When things aren't going to the way you want them to be, there's nothing much you could do but accept it and deal it with

Be courage enough to face it
Life is full challenges and opportunities one must come forward to seize it
Or else someone may take it away from you
In order to be successful, being brave is important
"Be courage" is what my mind says all the time
But sometimes i feel discouraged
What can i do life is that way
When you aren't confident enough, everything doesn't go the way you want them to be
So be confident enough and face all the challenges that comes your way
That too i always say to myself
Good luck `

likely

It is my grandmother who made me strong and who makes me stronger to keep going
I owe it to her
She brings out the best in me

I miss her so much i really hope i would see her soon

Right now my focus is school

I don't even have a social life anymore

School, hospital, and work are my life

I don't even hang out with my friends anymore

I'm busy, they're busy

So we don't find time together to spend

I wish eating out and doing food trips

It's always about food i swear 

I neither lose or gain weight what is the matter with me

Let's not talk about weight it's depressing

I hope to just pass all my course this semester

I could not wait for Christmas vacation to come 

I'm just gonna spend my vacation at home watching movies and drinking hot chocolate

That would be so awesome

It's been a long time i didn't post again

I hope my readers are doing well and good

Good luck `

the curse

It always happen to me
Why?
I never did anything wrong
I do not know if i did wrong
It is what i've been always scared of
That the same thing will happen again to me
Is it going to be like this through out
It is what i've been trying to avoid for all these years
It happened all over again
This feeling i cannot shake off
Was it my own doing
I do not know what's keeping me in trying to move forward
I keep talking in the back of my head that it will never ever happen to me again
That i would never let it happen again
But even i could not do anything about it
Just let the course of actions take it effect
If that is the way i will learn, then let it be.

OUAT

When i'm to watch Once Upon A Time, it always make me realize how a person can have so much hatred in her heart that makes her want to get revenge to those people who gave her pain and misery

It troubled me how much a person can change into a completely different person

It's true it happens in real life i just don't think i've witnessed it not as the same in tv series anyway

How hatred could stay in a person's heart clouding their thoughts and mind to think clearly pushing them to do things 

Things that are unacceptable and hurt the people they love and who loves them 

What does it mean to be evil? To be wicked?

What does it mean to purely love someone?

I've been watching too much tv series one in particular

I'm getting in too much into it that i'm getting sucked in the story

If i was in the story who would i be?

What could i have done? What would i do?

One question is ringing on the back of my head

I've seen and read in somewhere and it goes like this:

"If you are the main character in a book, would you read until the end?

I don't even know how to answer that question if it was asked to me

I'm having doubts that means i would hesitate in reading until the end

I still do not know how i would survive and how i am surviving until now

So in regards to reading my own story, i am reluctant to see if i get my happy ending

change

You
He
She
They
Everyone changed
Then why can't i changed
Don't I get at least a chance to change
Does it matter if it is for better or for worse
Changing the old ways is what i know
But isn't it going to be my call to say i changed
Maybe i didn't recognize it is as i changed for the worse because i didn't see it as it was
People see differently
But you know yourself
Sometimes all you gotta do is realize it
It is up to you to acknowledged it and actually say that maybe you've changed for the worse
It takes courage and guts to say it
But if you don't admit it does not mean you are weak and coward maybe you didn't see it that it was for worse
Maybe it was the best you could do for yourself at that one point.

mirror

I was afraid to look at mirror at some point because i was scared of what i was going to see
I was terrified of what i was becoming
I knew what i was becoming but i was in denial to admit it to myself
I was blind to see what was really going on
I had to tell myself over and over again
That it was okay that i myself would be able to accept it because i could not escape it even if i tried to
At one point i had to figure out myself
I needed to overcome the fear
Even if it will sucked the life out of me.

November

So it is November now
Time flies surely fast
I couldn't believe 2014 is ending soon
One more month but christmas celebration is to happen first
I am currently struggling to go to my classes
I don't know what is happening to me i'm feeling lazy all of a sudden
This semester is overwhelming i must say
A lot of things happened
There is so many things to do and so many homework due to finish and hand in
I don't know if i could do all those things
My work isn't that stressful at all
School is more stressful and tiring i cannot lie
Everything is just going too fast i think
So many information to process that they just go in and out
Some remain in my head i hope or else i'm doomed
Clinical is stressful too
I don't even know how i am still surviving
I still believe but i don't know what is next
I need some time to breathe and rethink everything.

having a sibling

There's no one you can really trust and no one to ask my for help when you needed it.
It's not like i am complaining or anything or maybe i am complaining i don't know
I feel alone sometimes not just because i do not have a love life
But that's one issue i should not go to bcos it is complete nonsense
I don't beed a guy so i could move forward in my life
I feel lonely and neglected
Maybe it is because i do not have any siblings or cousins to talk to
I used to talk to my cousins but not so much anymore that i missed having late night talks just about everything
I used to share a room with my cousin that i missed
It is so quiet in my room the only sound playing is my laptop
I wish i have a sibling
What does it really feel like to have one
At least i can say he or she is still my brother or sister after all of what happened whatever they are
At least you can run to them if something comes up bcos he or she is your sibling no matter what
No matter what fights you had, arguments, etc
You can joke around with each other and make him or her do chores for you if you're the oldest
Jealousy with each other would be inevitable but that can be resolved
But then again i would like to hear him or her calling you and older sister/brother and the respect they have for you
Such moments are irreplaceable
Unless you don't get along
That time will solved i believe
I care
Those were my feelings.