likely

It is my grandmother who made me strong and who makes me stronger to keep going
I owe it to her
She brings out the best in me

I miss her so much i really hope i would see her soon

Right now my focus is school

I don't even have a social life anymore

School, hospital, and work are my life

I don't even hang out with my friends anymore

I'm busy, they're busy

So we don't find time together to spend

I wish eating out and doing food trips

It's always about food i swear 

I neither lose or gain weight what is the matter with me

Let's not talk about weight it's depressing

I hope to just pass all my course this semester

I could not wait for Christmas vacation to come 

I'm just gonna spend my vacation at home watching movies and drinking hot chocolate

That would be so awesome

It's been a long time i didn't post again

I hope my readers are doing well and good

Good luck `

unconditional love

Have you guys ever have that feeling when you just want to hug those people you love so dearly and say thank you to them for being a part of your life?
For supporting you and pushing you hard to be whoever you want to be
I guess everyone does
I'm telling you i'm not that kind of person
I want to be but it is hard to be one when you never had to start doing it
To me it is so awkward to do that
But i love it when others do it to me
I feel special to them
It means i'm a big part of their lives
They acknowledged me that is the great part
That's what unconditional love is right
It means you don't expect anything in return you love them and that's the point
It's what family and friends are for
In family they can send and push you away or you choose to leave but in the end they will always there for you well in some cases are
You yourself and they chose to forgive and forget and that takes courage and effort
Even if you did something wrong over again they will still accept you back unless they decided not to
that's what i like about family
In friends it's like the same kind of story but it has the privilege to chose and decide you are going to be friends with who you want to be like family
I don't know why i am saying all these i mean everyone knows these
It's something i'm writing based on what is on my mind writing helps me clear my mind
I think a lot of stuff i just don't have the courage to say it all out i don't have the right words
That is why i write it all out i'm that kind of person
Thank you for reading, more power `

shopping spree

Mom woke me up early Saturday morning she wanted me to go to work with her
Bcos i wasn't feeling to be a lazy bum i got up and prepped myself to go
When we were done we split the money in half
It was good thing i went with her now i have money
I wanted to go to Kennedy and Lawrence but mom took me to Marshalls
She took me shopping it was ages since we went shopping together
i could not even remember the last time
I wanted to buy a jeans or two
Bcos i knew mom was paying i picked everything i want well mostly anything i really want
I got myself a pair of jeans from Guess mom got two for herself
I got a shorts from Vero Moda even though summer is almost over
A shirt from X-S-IVE which i picked out from the men's department
well you know bcos i like loose shirts
Well it's almost as a t shirt dress on me bcos it was big and that's the way i like it
It was funny actually when i was in the men's department an old guy was looking at me
Maybe he thought i was looking for a shirt for my boyfriend or something
But i was picking for myself
It was even more funny when i put the shirt in front of me while looking at the mirror
I didn't care i like to shop at men's department
Then i got two bras one from Calvin Klein and Sophie B
Overall it was a good day
I was glad i woke up early or else i wouldn't have been able to go shopping ~~~
I was too lazy to take pictures so no pictures

safari adventure

My family and i went to the African Lion Safari

It was like an hour away from our place

We got there almost lunch time and we had a little picnic time in the shed area

They had a lot of tables so that was good

Then we watched mother and baby elephants swim and play together in the water

While inside the car we went to Nairobi sanctuary where animals like lions and cheetah were

It took one hour to visit every animal they had

The place was really huge bcos they need to keep spaces between each animals they wouldn't know if one could attack the other animal and maybe eat them

My favourites were the lions, the rhinoceros, the zebras, and the giraffes

Mom thought two of the giraffes were just statue bcos they were not moving at all

but in fact they were alive and kicking they were just very good in standing still

They were baboons, ostriches, kangaroos, bulls, and deers and many more that i didn't mention

Good thing we were inside the car bcos that would be too much of walking

They said some of the animals climb on top of the cars but it didn't happen today

I think the animals were tired bcos it was really hot outside

We went to ride the boat cruise it was pretty quick but nice

We also went to line up for the scenic railway ride which was a small train it wasn't bad

After that we had an ice cream break i had chocolate chip cookie dough in a waffle cone

It was delicious it was melting pretty quick bcos it was just too hot

We watched 3 shows they had

The first one was parrot paradise 

Parrots and other birds showing off their talents and such

The second one was birds of prey flying demonstration

Birds showing off their flying and hunting skills

It was really amusing how birds were trained to follow their trainers

If birds were set free, weren't they gonna go fly away and escape?

But it was just awesome to watch

The last one was elephant round up

The elephants were fun to watch doing tricks and stunts

One could paint, one even played soccer and the other shot a ball in a basket ring

I was gonna ride an elephant it was an additional $8 per person

But then there was a huge line up so i didn't go besides it was getting late already

We decided it would be next time

My uncle bought me a flipbook it was two lions playing with each other

I chose the lion flipbook bcos i'm a leo well that didn't quite answer the question why i chose it

My aunt on the other hand picked the elephant flipbook well simply bcos she's an elephant lover

She has tons of elephant statues at their house

If you don't know i love flipbooks i even asked Eunice to make me one but she didn't give it to me yet i wonder when it would be ~~~

I didn't realize but my stepdad said we were at the safari for like 7 hours 

i couldn't believe it myself

I enjoyed some quality time with my family besides i've been hanging out too much i would say with my friends this summer but all is good

At least i've spent my summer well bcos it would be fall season soon

I would be busy in school and so are my friends so we wouldn't gonna meet each other as often as this summer

I enjoyed this day 

If you want to watch my vlog here's the link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ub9c9IQi_zg&list=UUcAZdB-trbPVRf6bRuBOEHg

Enjoy ^^

fam party

I came along with my stepdad to go to his brother's house bcos he was celebrating his birthday
Mom couldn't come bcos she was working again
She even has work on Labour day
Anyway we went to pick up his sister first then his mother basically she's like my grandma now
It took an hour to get to the house
There was lots of food
We ate we hang out we talked
They even asked me if i have a boyfriend already
Of course i said no i don't really have one
We played bingo for 3 times and i won 2 times
Weren't i lucky
The prize was like $1 for the first time i won
And on my second time i won $5 bcos it was the last game already
Then we chill at their backyard
They have a huge house and a really large backyard
It was really nice out there
What i really liked about their house was their kitchen it was really spacious and they have this nice table top
I forgot to mention they have a snake as a pet
I didn't get to know its name
but i think it was a constricting snake, non poisonous boa or so my stepdad said
My step uncle well he's like my uncle now the one whose birthday it was
he gave me my own fishing rod
It wasn't my birthday but he gave me a gift
He said he'll be taking me to go fishing someday with my stepdad when they have free time
They knew i never went to go fishing and i never tried it
They also said i need to get a fishing license bcos i'm a young adult now
It's like $20 i think in Canadian Tire so that wasn't that bad at all
I would love to go and try
I like new experiences they are fun to try
I'm spontaneous that's just me
On our way home i wanted some ice cream so we had a stopover
I bought a strawberry shortcake flavoured ice cream and soft baked cookies they are just my favourites
Truth be told i can never resist them
I hope everyone had a good day bcos i did

family dinner

I was kidding when i asked my mom that she should take me and my stepdad out to treat us for dinner
She has been working too much that was why i decided to ask jokingly
I even said that she wasn't giving me money so why not just treat us out for some good dinner
I was shocked when she replied where should we go
I wanted some fish and chips but bcos it was already closed we decided we were going for some Japanese food instead
Who was i to say no to when that was free food we were talking about
It wasn't exactly free bcos mom was paying but to me that was free bcos at least i didn't get to spend any money good for me
We went to the Japanese restaurant we always go to
It has been so long since we last went there i didn't even remember when
We all ordered bento box and it included sushi
There were lots of food i couldn't finish so we had to take it home
It was fun and having some family dinner is like spending quality time and bonding with one another so it was not bad
My stepdad asked me why i didn't turn into a vampire yet
My 'rents know i sleep at like dawn already they probably hear me or something
I said no bcos i didn't grow my fangs just yet
I said before that i wasn't going to take selfies anymore
I didn't actually said not going to take anymore but maybe limit taking pictures of myself but i couldn't just help it ~~~
I borrowed money from my mom bcos i am trying not to use my credit card anymore for now
I borrowed money bcos i had to buy a monthly metropass to use this coming September
I am going to pay her anyway when my student loan arrives i hope it comes soon
Actually i woke up today feeling stressed and all about school
I am worried about where i am going to have my clinical placement
And i need to go to my family doctor but i just don't have enough time
I need to book an appointment for my cpp clearance and pay
I was frustrated when i was booking for appointment bcos it was confusing and i thought i didn't get a  time slot and then i had to pay right away
I needed to sign up for paypal in order to pay so i had no choice but to use my credit card
I did what i had to do
It was funny i just now realized i was stressing for nothing but then we always feel stressed when there's something coming up soon like school for example
I was supposed to find a good internet movie to watch with my mom and stepdad and i chose
Godzilla but then mom decided to watch Tagalog series so we had put off the movie for the next week maybe if i don't get too busy bcos school will start soon
I hope you guys have a goodnight zZzz

a day at Ripley's Aquarium

Last Friday (August 15th)

I went to Ripley's Aquarium with family

It was really fun and i was really entertained

There was a variety of different kind of fish and other sea creatures

We saw a show where a diver went to the aquarium when there's lots of stingrays

You could tell i was having fun and enjoying myself when i go wander alone by myself not wanting to wait for anyone ~~~

My eyes got full just by seeing all those sea creatures

It was totally worth the pay

I would want to go back there

I really wanted a small aquarium in my room and have a small fish as a pet

There's this feeling that whenever i look at fishes swimming it makes me calm and composed

It makes me stop thinking about problems and other things

I just watched the fishes swim like there's no tomorrow not wanting to go away

The fishes on the large aquarium were very amusing to watch

I really love it

I am thankful my stepdad brought me there

After we were done, my stepdad and i went to eat some fish and chips

It was a legit one bcos they have this picture where it says they opened on 1959

That was a really long time ago i wasn't even born nor my mom

I did not take a picture bcos i was just hungry i just could not wait to eat the food that was in front of me bcos it looked delicious and smelled so good

I would definitely go back to that fish and chips house

If you want to watch my vlog in Ripley's Aquarium here's the link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHItnr7nFMw

Enjoy and have fun ^^

the gifts

Gift from family

A card and money from my step-grandma (she's sweet too)

A Hudson wrist watch from my Aunt Emy (she knows i collect watches now)

A card, an angel figurine and money from my aunt Liza and uncle Csabi

A card and money from my 'rents (i'm going to New York soon so the money i got will be my pocket money) ~~~~

Gift from Eunice (i always call her hyung now) ~~~

A small card saying i should have love life real soon haha

A chopstick set she knew i really liked it plus i love strawberries

And a diy display of my nickname (HANS)

Gift from Berna

A card

A hot/cold glass

And a wall display 

Gift from Czarina and Jessah

A mint green Herschel bag

Gift from Louise

An NYX lipstick in chic red 

I really love all my gifts every single one

It's the thought that counts

They all bought gifts and one made it just for me or thinking about me

I thank you all hugs and kisses ~~~

pre birthday celeb

My ootd (July 27th) mint green tube dress with a short sleeve cardigan paired with my havaianas
My ever sweet aunt Liza prepared all the decorations and balloons i felt special
There was lots of foods
Sadly some of my friends couldn't go but it was okay
Berna fooled me that she could not go to my party bcos she said she has an emergency at her home and i actually believed her! I'll never forget that but it was fun
I was completely fooled, i'm gullible when it comes to Berna i don't know why i always believe her when i know she was joking and bluffing
Anyways, we had a blast
I had my 20 shots of Korean wine it's called soju
Then there was an after party at my place
It was really awesome
I had an amazing summer party i'll never forget
Thank you for the people who made it happen
I love them all words cannot express my gratitude to them
It is really one of my best summer party of the year!
Although for me it's always a best party when i know i enjoyed it
Thank you all, lovelots
Hugs and kisses to my friends ~~~

Everyone ^-^

From left to right: Laura, Kathleen, me, mom, & Gio (the checkered team except me)

From left to right: Berna, Laura, Louise, me, & Eunice

Czarina, me, Jessah, & Gio

From left to right: Louise, Eunice, me, & Kathleen

From left to right: Eunice, me, Czarina, Kathleen, & Louise

coolest 'rents ever

I tell you i have the coolest stepdad ever
I just want to say that
From the bottom of my heart
So i'll having my wisdom teeth extraction this coming Thursday
My stepdad wanted to treat mom and i, although there is no special occasion
One reason to celebrate though is that my mom got a new full time job
And secondly, i won't be able to eat regular food for a week bcos of my wisdom teeth extraction
Technically it's called a surgery already bcos it involves a nurse and a doctor
Dentist is a doctor too, a doctor for the teeth ~~~
I'll be sedated and knocked out so i won't know what they'll do to me
Oh i even bet with my stepdad how much will be the overall cost of that surgery
Whoever is close to the cost will win $5 (i hope i win)
Anyways bcos of that surgery, my stepdad treated us out to a Japanese restaurant last Saturday night, the day we went strawberry picking
I ordered chicken katsu don, they have large servings (in my opinion)
Also i wanted to try "sake" a Japanese liquor made of fermented rice
I say it was too strong but i finished 5 oz of sake
It would have been fun if i were to drink with someone bcos my stepdad doesn't drink anymore
Although mom tried sake and she didn't like it haha
Don't i have the best 'rents ever?
I feel grateful though even if i'm a bad daughter sometimes
I still have to reflect from the bad things i've done
I will learn, grow, and mature little by little for the sake of the people who loves me.

strawberry picking

Today i woke up at 7am bcos my aunt will be picking me up at 8:15am to go strawberry picking

I tell you i'm a strawberry lover, it's an addiction

I went with my two aunts and my friend Eunice

There was no one else who is available and could come so it was just us

We picked tons of strawberries, almost a bucket

I picked the small and glossy ones bcos they were just cute plus they were so sweet

I had lots of fun. It was my first time to go strawberry picking

I've been once to cherry picking but that was years ago i don't even remember anymore

Little by little, i'm filling up my summer memories

My ootd i wore a black shirt from Garage pair it with shorts, my havaianas slippers and a blue floppy hat. I say a summer sunglasses is a must during this kind of days

Eunice's vlog of strawberry picking, check it out at

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bgSnoEv3bs

Right picture: isn't the strawberry cute? It's kinda like a heart shape

I jumped to high, i was that hyper ~~~